The Mark Inside

  • Nelson S.

    Rank #250 of 1949

    Votes: 77

    About my essay:

     

    “Hustlers of the world, there is one mark you cannot beat: the mark inside”.

     

 

It's entirely fitting that I start this essay addressing the question, “what does it mean to cook food well?” with one of my favorite William S. Burroughs quotes: “Hustlers of the world, there is one mark you cannot beat: the mark inside”. I could practically end this futile act of writer's desperation right here. It says pretty much...everything...in a nutshell. And we're not talking grill marks either. This is something deep and personal, existential even. I mean, why do anything well? Hell, the ancients tried to address this important philosophical quandary way back when Socrates was fondling Plato behind the Parthenon. Fast-forward to a more modern Phadrus, in Robert Pirsig's metaphysical meltdown, Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance for a decidedly schizophrenic, yet correct, interpretation of these matters.

Taking this a step further, does this question really have anything to do with food particularly? I'm going to go out on a limb and say, “no!”.  Perhaps because I'm an artist and an obsessed cook, I see all these roguish endeavors as really one in the same - a unity in distinction, but a unity nonetheless. Why struggle for years to perfect a proper biriyani or, for that matter, find a cure for cancer? There are the obvious answers: pleasing your customers, your audience, saving lives, making people happy. These may be necessary conditions on the road to cooking, bowling, or tap dancing well, but they'll never suffice. Besides, there will always be some critic (the lowest wombat of a species, by the way - apologies to wombats) or worse ...some vegan... eagerly waiting in shadows to mug and malign your obvious genius.

Whether adored or reviled, there is but one critic that ever really counts - ourselves. Yes, even the self-delusional, and aren't we all, know somewhere deep down inside our distended guts whether we've truly succeeded or failed - and isn't that eternally provisional judgment only ours to make, really? Who else could ever, with true authority, claim jurisdiction over life's home plate call but ourselves - and our wives (but I digress).

So, what about cooking well? There is only one truly essential reason to endeavor to do so: because you NEED to - because you have been bitten and are now afflicted with some epicure's venereal disease, the likes of which now compels you to do highly irrational, life-threatening feats (like pressure cooking).

As one esteemed (and quite tall) writer "confided" (hint, hint); chefs, like skilled hustlers, can and do get away with murder. There is no practical reason to thwart that rather expedient practice. There is only a personal one - the drive to create, to improve, and to perfect according to ideals only chefs themselves can truly define. The best chefs, like the best musicians and artist since time immemorial, have always sought to raise the bar toward the sky, answering primarily to themselves, trying to beat that mark - yes, the one inside.   

 

comments

Buffalo C.:

Great article Nelson, I love your point of view!

August 18, 2010 Report Abuse
Scotty H.:

Nelson Starr is the kindest, bravest, warmest, most wonderful human being I've ever known in my life.

August 18, 2010 Report Abuse
Kelly D.:

YEAH NELSON!!!!

August 20, 2010 Report Abuse
Connie C.:

You Know your Food Nel..

August 22, 2010 Report Abuse
Ken K.:

Nel,

Great article I would expect nothing less!!!

August 22, 2010 Report Abuse
Heather J.:

Interesting essay. But why is FB telling me I voted when I didn't physically see or click on a vote button?...goddamn gremlins again...Well, hopefully, FB chose thumbs up for me. I enjoyed the essay!

August 22, 2010 Report Abuse
Patrick B.:

antony you have only scrathed the surface the last time stop back and we'll show you how to eat

August 23, 2010 Report Abuse
Mia K.:

Excellent essay Nelson!  Good Luck!

August 27, 2010 Report Abuse
Brendt S.:

I would love to see Nelson handle a minute in a real kitchen.  He is a hack and nothing fills real chefs with more boiling blood than to see some fake act like they understand, even in the smallest of ways, what it means to be a chef.

 

 

August 30, 2010 Report Abuse
Nelson S.:

Brendt S.,  Thanks for your "thoughtful" comment.  It is true that chefs are like that!  So you are correct in that.  My friends that are chefs do feel like it is only they that know what food and cooking are all about.  In many ways they are right.  As professionals, they have to do it every day, day in and day out, in sickness and in health, fill in the blank.  I have nothing but the utmost of respect for what they do.  That is why I pay homage to them every chance I get (but I will tease, prod or poke on occasion...just to keep them honest!).  I've never claimed to be a chef.  I am a passionate home cook, though, and, as someone rather obsessed with cooking and ingredients - and the artistry of gastronomy itself - I do feel a kinship (deserved or undeserved) with the best chefs.  That kinship is not forged over being equals but only by sharing a common obsession with food, its preparation and the careful artistry that goes into that.  However, I AM indeed a musician and artist who is pretty well regarded by those that truly know what I do.  I am convinced that their exists a real connection, a simpatico between all artists - and that implies chefs also - when it comes to the act of creation and the energy, drive (often bordering on pathology) that fuels us ALL as artists.  On that level - and this relates fully to my essay here - I feel that I am entirely suited to remark on this topic.  I understand what it's like to cook or play music simply for the love of it but additionally because one is driven by some "demon within" to pursue this futile act of perfectionism.  This is what drives the best artists, no matter what their medium.  If chefs are an exception to this, I'd be very surprised.  And from my experiences, no matter how limited (in the kitchen and talking with bona fide chefs), I've seen no evidence to support such a strange claim.  If you would like to relate something to the contrary, please share your absence of artistry.         

August 30, 2010 Report Abuse